The Loop has left the building

I truly believe there are supernatural forces acting here. There’s just too many coincidences happening, too many interactions that I just never though could happen, and I think I know what it is. It’s because I’m moving.

I believe in Karma. I believe in fate, but I also believe in destiny, and I don’t believe they’re the same thing. I also believe in irony, which may be the supernatural force I mentioned above.

See, I’m getting married in January then moving away to Oregon shortly after. In the past 5 years my life has changed a great deal, and in those changes there were several people I lost contact with, others I stopped talking to, others that stopped talking to me, and others still that just disappeared… or was that me? At any rate, now that I’m moving away, all of these people are not only around, all of those bridges I would have thought to be burned down are now actually being rebuilt. Slowly, for sure, but they’re getting there.

So irony has decided to make this harder on me, and them, by allowing this to happen when I’m on the way out. Or perhaps it’s karma allowing me to tie up loose ends before I leave…

ARGH!!

Loop’s Murphy

*WARNING!! HARRY POTTER SPOILERS IN COMMENTS!!*

I’ve always been fond of Murphy’s Law. Not in that way that most use it, like an eloquent way of saying, “Shit Happens,” but rather that in the land of probability/possibility, anything can happen. Murphy literally attacks the negative aspect of this line of thinking, but I’ve always thought that the last thing you would expect to happen will happen, which includes the possibility that the event might be a positive one.

Milca got a call from an ex who she hadn’t talked to in some time, and didn’t see the need (nor did she have the desire, if you get my meaning). When he called he was polite, made apologies, and seemed to be doing well. Though she didn’t think too highly of him, Milca didn’t want him dead or anything, and even wondered if he was still alive. Knowing that he was, and hearing him apologize left her feeling good about his call.

A week ago she would have never thought this to be possible, then it happens, and the end result was positive. He was bound to call, but the fact that the end result would even resemble something positive was right out, yet it happened. I wonder if the same would happen if I ran into Voldebitch. Would I give her the time of day? Would I listen to anything she had to say, apology or no?

The wonders never cease.

Expect everything.

Fear nothing.

Allow change.

Nothing is final.

“In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.”
-Lennon/McCartney

Dork vs. Nerd

I’m not your average person, and neither are most of my friends. Those that don’t understand our kind try to call us several things, as most people try and name/label things they don’t understand every day in every walk of life. While commenting here I was talking about my boy phil‘s dork factor. I thought it necessary to elaborate, in case some took it the wrong way, or merely to educate those masses that feel they need to label us.

Dorks take a level of interest in something that goes a bit farther than extreme. This dork label is typically added on to whatever that interest is in, for example a movie dork. What’s the difference between a movie buff and a movie dork? A movie buff likely watches a load of movies, but a movie dork could tell you that the sword that Inigo Montoya uses is the same physical sword that the bad guy in The Crow uses. It’s not just a passion, but a passion that goes over that imaginary line. Being able to play Lord of the Rings Trivial Pursuit and get four pieces of pie on your first turn might make you a LotR dork.

Their are nearly infinite areas one might be a dork in. When one has several areas that they might call themselves a dork in, the general term of dork typically applies. For example, if someone was a movie dork, but had no other real passions, calling them a movie dork would suffice. If they took a day off work to read the last Harry Potter book, have all of their Magic the Gathering cards in their car, had a bumper sticker custom made with a Princess Bride quote, and have 4 video game systems hooked up in their home ready to play, merely calling them a dork would be more than appropriate.

Typically when I hear “nerd” I have a mental image of the nerds from Revenge of the Nerds, but I believe they have evolved to a degree. Personally, I believe that the nerds are dorks in areas that lack some level of social skills. People who troll around message boards would liklely fall into the nerd category, but this is relative, of course. If their were a heirarchy, the dork would be above the nerd, with gradients of gray between them.

The short and skinny of it is that I am a Dork with nerd tendencies. Most of my dorkinesses are in areas that still involve talking to other people, but then I also know how to write programs on my calculator.

These are all personal definitions, of course, merely based on mental images these words bring to ming upon hearing them.

Oh, and yer mom.

The Loop Unplugged

I used to be a party animal. I drank every day, sometimes indulged in more, and threw caution into the wind. I went to the bar every Monday, and sometimes went on extra days just because. I threw 2 keggers at my old house (1 with 3 other people), and always had beer in the fridge.

My 22nd birthday party was a bash that had 2 kegs, and dozens of bottles of hard booze. I spent around $300 on just hard liquor.

In the past couple years I’ve gotten back on track. I’m back in school, still working full time, and maintaining a serious relationship (We’re getting married in January, for Pete’s sake). I’m not going to get preachy, as I’m not the kind to do that. My lifestyle has changed, and there’s not much that I regret, with the exception of one thing.

I don’t get to see people much. I’m sure that behind closed doors people might say that it’s the ball and chain keeping The Loop home, but really that’s not the case. Granted, she’s not a party kinda girl, but I go out without her, and she understands. There’s been times when I didn’t have any time for her, really. I guess what I’m getting at is that I’m just hella busy. Working 40 hours a week, going to school, doing homework (Calculus, at that), and maintaining a relationship takes most of my time. I miss having all the time in the world to see my friends. Hell, I used to have people at the house every single day, without fail. Now I see them about once a week. Sometimes more, sometimes not that often.

Enough with the excuses, already. I’m just throwing this out there so that all of you peeps that haven’t been getting their Loop on as much of late know that I am still alive, I’m down for hanging out, I’m not locked away in a cupboard, and I miss you all. I may not be the party animal I once was, but that doesn’t mean I’m not still The Loop. Just no more keggers tat the house, please.

I Stand Corrected

I may be a bit late for some of you, but I just saw a tidbit of the Star Wars DVD’s. I am borrowing them, and will watch them all the way through, but until I write that review on vagueidea, I thought to post here and let you all know that if you were even thinking of buying/renting/seeing these, you might just get pissed off.

When I heard that the DVD release was going to be the revised films, I was peeved. It would be easy enough to include the original version on the DVD, but George went ahead and made the choice for the rest of us. He also made some more choices. There are several, but I’m going to touch one. Again, a full report is coming, I just need to watch all the movies again.

Remember the Ewok celebration at the end of Jedi? The “Gyub gyub. Ginny, gyub gyub” song was changed into some feel good song while new footage was shown of all the cities that were celebrating the demise of the Death Star. In Coruscant they added the Jedi Council and Galactic Senate buildings in the back. That’s not the big problem. They added yet another city’s celebration to those previously added, Naboo. That’s not the big problem. Everyone is smiling and laughing, then Luke goes to a railing and looks out in reflective thought to see Yoda, Obi Wan, and his father, Anakin. They digitally replaced the original actor playing Anakin with Hayden Christensen. I repeat, THEY REPLACED THE ORIGINAL ANAKIN WITH HAYDEN CHRISTENSEN.

I was pissed enough when Greedo shot first, but this? It’s like I was once shown what was truly beautiful, then the one who showed me this beauty thought it might be a good idea to wipe his ass with it every 5 years or so. If it’s not some new revision, it’s a prequel that makes my eyes bleed.

George, I will watch these new films, but I’m fairly certain that afterwards I will humbly ask that you do yourself and the rest of the world a favor by allowing someone to rape you in the ass with that appliance that the guy in Se7en used for the sin of lust.

Tough Titties

The comments are now through blogger, so all the old comments on haloscan are no longer accessible, but I can retrieve them if you really want to know what was said. Since all the people that comment read at least 3 times a week, I don’t see this being a problem. If it is, refer to the title of this post. Good day.

Previously, In The Loop

Now that my hair is the Loop circa 1998, it makes me look back on where I was then, and where I am now. Quite a lot has happened since then In The Loop. In a nutshell, here’s the basics for you.

Then: Had a girlfriend that was 3 years younger than I, who ripped my heart out, mocked it on the floor, kicked some dirt at it, then had the audacity to make claims concerning our relationship that were completely false, and served little to no purpose.

Now: Fiancé is 3 years older, holds my heart in her hands with loving care, and is the one person I can completely bare my soul to without heitation or remorse.

Then: No car. Rode busses, bummed rides, walked, rode bike.

Now: 1993 Intrepid with several bumper stickers that clearly label me as a dork (which is to say that one of them has a web address on it, and another has a movie quote that I had custom made)

Then: Lived with parents.

Now: Moved four times, lived with 8 different people, and currently live with my fiancé and her mother.

Then: Insecure, unsure of myself, and dangerously naive.

Now: Hit rock bottom a few years ago. Lost just about all my friends, hated my job, where I lived, my daily routine, and just about everything else about my life. Slowly but surely, much like most who hit rock bottom, I climbed back up to the point where I am today. Happy, in love, content with my life, and focused on achieving my goals.

Then: Wanted to be a teacher, started PCC, never did homework.

Now: Left PCC because school was lame and I was working full time. Didn’t see the point, really, and my grades suffered. Now I’m back on track, still aiming to be a teacher, and getting decent grades, too. I actually do my homework now (several teachers from The Loop’s past have just gone into cardiac episodes as a result).

Then: Had a pathetic excuse for a website where my immaturity and lack of web design skills were made apparent to the whole world.

Now: Have a not-too-pathetic website where my immaturity is still made apparent to the whole world, but the templates in blogger make up for my lack of skills and make things all pretty for me.

Soap Box

I’ve got my own blog here, and some buddies have their own (linked to the right), and I know more still that have no online presence at all. Sometimes those that do have an online presence have made their niche in such a way that their creative juices can’t manifest themselves into that niche 100% of the time. For all these people, there is a solution.

vagueidea.com

An open blog (for those that play nice, that is), and an open forum. Anyone can post. Anyone can comment. It’s the internet’s own little soap box. Sure, there aren’t thousands of people on there, but I’d say it’s a matter of time. Everyone has something to say, even if it is fluff about recently rented movies, right?

I’m thinking that my posts there will be primarily about movies and whatnot. I don’t touch on that as much here, and it is a passion of mine. Don’t worry all of you faithful readers, I will mostly post here… mostly.