My head is in any number of places at any given time these days. Â Finding a job, finishing the show (this is the last weekend, tickets are likely sold out, but if they aren’t you better come), and figuring out what my feelings are regarding the fairer sex. Â Those that please the eye don’t ring the bells, and those that ring the bells have red flags with “Danger, The Loop, DANGER!” written all over them.
I am constantly wanting what (who, really) I can’t have, and not wanting what is readily available to me (see: The Human Condition).  Pretty much any reason that you can imagine as to why I shouldn’t be with any given woman, I’m running in to those issues these days.  Marital status, sexual orientation, religion, politics, and lifestyle…  they’re all keeping me steadily single.  Not that I’m looking for a relationship, really, but I tend to miss being affectionate and having someone be affectionate with me.  At least I’m wiser these days, and understand myself much more than I did several years ago.
What’s really funny is that I got an anonymous email several months ago from who I believe to be one of my exgirlfriends, and though I had written them off, I’m almost interested in rekindling a friendship.  The funny part about this is that I’m not lacking in friendship at all; I am surrounded by friends that support and love me as I do them.  Perhaps I am feeling like Jack Nicholson in Something’s Gotta Give when he goes up to all the women he’d been with.  Not to relive the glory days, or even to try to make it “all better,” but to somehow learn from those days of yore.
Know anyone that’s hiring?